75 Hard - Day 12

Yesterday, day 11, was the first day I felt sorry for myself and didn’t want to complete my workouts. It started Friday night.

 

I left work around 3:00 p.m. and intended to get my outdoor workout in when I got home, a 5.75 mile run. The weather was poor and the drive home took about 30 minutes longer than usual. I changed and was out the door running within 15 minutes of getting home. The run was good, my average mile time is continuing to drop…no issues with the workout. 

 

Once I was done I showered and took Celia out on a date; Friday’s are our date nights since we’re like two ships passing in the night during the week with work and kid activities. Friday was good but when I woke up Saturday the previous 10+ days caught up with me. 

 

Two of my kids had soccer tournaments all day Saturday, that meant I woke up at 4:30 a.m. to get my first workout in. My body felt beat down so I did 45 minutes of Yoga thinking when I got home from soccer in the evening I’d lift or run. That did not happen.

 

Yesterday was cold and very windy, all day. The effects had me exhausted when I returned home. I felt weak…my mind was weak. I asked Celia if she wanted to go on a 45 minute walk with me, no luck. She was exhausted after her day of soccer too. Begrudgingly, I went out side and began to walk. No running. No lifting. Just walking at a pathetic pace. It was the first moment I didn’t want to do part of the 75 Hard challenge.

 

When I got home I wanted to have trash food as snacks as we sat on the couch watching TV. This too was the first real negative food impulse I felt. I essentially had to white knuckle the craving and it subsided about 20 minutes later. 

 

I need to remember that in the future, most urges will be temporary and pass but the initial phase will be the most challenging.

 

I started reading Discipline Equals Freedom by Jocko Willink and ended the day falling asleep before 8:00 p.m. I didn’t set an alarm and slept over 10 hours. I guess you could say my body needed a few more hours.

 

I can’t help but wonder if yesterday, leading into today, was my first true challenge and I failed. Sure I abided by the guidelines of 75 Hard but if I want to truly transform myself I believe I should have pushed through and lifted weights or ran last night. Furthermore, I should have woken up earlier this morning and attacked the day. I did get two good workouts in today but forcing myself to wake up was a barrier I should have pushed through and did not.